I've done a bunch of writing that really doesn't matter this last week. Started something, got to about 6k and I'm debating letting it die. I've got a firm idea on where it could go and what I could do with it, and already I'm feeling myself get attached to the characters and storyline.
Baby animals make everything better, so I've recruited them to be included in this rather discouraging post. Look at this little fuzzy headed baby!
It's just... guuuuys, I don't wanna work. I just want it all to poof onto my screen. Like magic! Pretty fairy magic that lets me not have to think things through! Ugh, writing is such a pain. I'm still trying to figure out why I submit myself to this torture.
I've written little bits to all of my stories, but I'm just not in the zone lately. I've hit a place in everything where I know what I want to happen... I just don't know how to get there. You know? I've hit these speed bumps before and gotten over them. Everyone is bound to get caught up in these nasty moments, no matter that you're working on your most prized, beloved work.
This is what we call an adorable flowered duckling, my friends.
It seems a tad unfair sometimes. We work our butts off for something that may not even happen to begin with*; why on Earth should we have to have frustrating moments like these? You know how writers back in the day were known to be crazy?
Yeah, that's why. Because we get so immersed in our work that when we don't know what to do, it feels like the world might be ending. Our characters' lives suddenly have a gap. If they have a gap, then does that mean we have a gap? That's probably why we're willing to sit in front of our computers for hours. Because our brains have gaps.
But we can take advantage of these gaps! We use these gaps to fill with different knowledgey bits. Things that don't matter, not really, when it comes to the Big Picture, but things that can get you through nonetheless.
It takes a lot, but that's the only way to get things done. It may be terrible, your worst work to date, but at least you have it done. Your first draft will always suck. Always. I am a firm believer in first draft suckage. I mean, sure, there are those oddballs who can crank out an awesome story in a week, but it's not like we like those people! (Kidding. We just get veryveryvery jealous.)
Why are baby animals so much cuter than baby children? Seriously. Human babies have nothin' on these little awkward jointed sweetcakes.
But you power through it. You write. Your first draft of anything, whether it be an entire scene or just a paragraph, can always be made better. So don't worry about those problems.
I know I still have to work on this. I get discouraged easily and if I'm not able to get through something quickly, I turn mopey and depressed and "You are a teenager, why do you even bother, your cat writes better stories than you ever will, JUST GIVE UP ALREADY."
And that is something that I simply do not enjoy. I've got to allow myself room to write down some kind of crap so I can continue on with better scenes. Ones that are exciting and contribute to the plot and involve kissing! The fun ones!
Anyways. I went from a couple paragraphs about my writing woes to this. But maybe now I'll be able to get somewhere.
Probably not though.
In happier news, Sam and I are going to see Maggie Stiefvater tomorrow!! I'll fill you in on it all next week. Hopefully I'll remember to take pictures between my fangirl squees.
Have a good weekend!
*Psh! Of course we'll be published! We are too crazy and determined to not be!